I've learned a few things about desire. I've learned that when I look forward at what I want to accomplish, no matter how little or big, it makes me happy. Just the opposite when I look back at all I may have messed up or missed out on, or the goals, hopes and dreams I didn't achieve. MJ Durkin reminded us this weekend just how important it is to understand why God wants us to fulfill the desires of our hearts.
When we bought the house we live in now, it was a dump. There were a hundred reasons not to buy it. But I could see the house finished. I had a vision for what the house would look like after we took all the duct tape and newspapers off the windows, put the kitchen and bathrooms back together and refinished the oak floors. I told my husband, "It has character. It has potential." I could see it finished and it brought me joy! When I was pregnant I looked past the constant indigestion and the cankles, and even though at some point I couldn't see the floor, I could see myself holding my precious baby. I looked forward to that day and it made me happy.
When you think about what's possible in your life; when you look to your desires, your dreams and goals, it feels so much better than looking back at what you didn't do or attain.
Dave and I had gotten so beat down with our many previous business failures and trying stretch a single income, that we finally gave up on our dreams. And I still remember the day when we agreed to just forget about all those places we wanted to travel to, all the things we wanted to do; and it felt like a knife in my chest. Even when we had failure after failure after failure, when we were working towards our goals we could focus in on our why and dust ourselves off and try again. But when we gave up on all those things, our lives became simply lives of existing. Dave went to work to pay the bills. I stayed home to raise the boys. Day in day out, everything stayed about the same. It doesn't feel good to give up on the desires of your heart.
Don't do what we did. Don't give up. If you have hopes, dreams, goals, desires..whatever you want to call them..write them down, get that box out or that bulletin board full of pictures. Life goes by so fast and I don't want you to get to the end of your life and wish you had….
I've learned from my past experience and after some time in our 6th business, I started to allow myself to imagine what life could be like. I started to dream again. I started to write down the desires of my heart. And it has brought me great joy to see many of those things now coming to fruition. But they never would have, had I not given myself permission to dream…just one more time.